In my world, everything's nonsense.

I could ask so many people this, including myself and that’s the saddest part. When I was younger I was so selfless and caring. I had so much compassion. I did anything for anyone. I hated, well I hate, seeing people down. As a youth though, I went out of my way to do anything, that I thought would cheer them up. It was just in my nature.  A few people took advantage of that and instead of learning from it, and bettering myself i became angry, jaded even. I need to get back to the old me. I’m not this huge bitch I TRY to make myself out to be. Well let’s be honest, I can be a bitch sometimes and sometimes it’s necessary. It’s just become a reaction or like a reflex. I immediately, put my bitch guard up because I’m just so used to people stepping on me, and especially when I’ve done so much to help them. It hurts. Sometimes, I really hate being a human because of the weaknesses that come with it. I believe we choose the characteristics we have but i also believe that sometimes to protect our selves we adopt some without noticing, like an instinct.

(Source: pocketsizecriticism)